I have been battling with acne since the age of 15, I am now 24 years old. My doctor visits have never lead to anything other than false hope and frustration. My condition has always went from terrible to improving and seeming to be coming to an end, then right back to terrible. Things like tetracycline and minocycline have always brought only initial improvements and have always worn off in their effects a few months later.
It was January of last year when I first came across the idea of demodex's link to skin problems. The Sea-Buckthorn soaps were what I found and ordered before finding DemodexSolutions. The Sea-Buckthorn soap improved me a lot, in fact almost to the point where the problem seemed to be ending and people close to me would mention how healthy-looking I was becoming and that I must've been doing something right. That turned around though, a time came when that soap was not keeping me clear like it had gotten me, and I pulled out a month's supply of stored ZZ and XMFL that Walter had sent me back in February or March 2004. In the midst of using these I consulted with Walter in email then put in an order for 4 months worth of the creams and some soaps and shampoos also. As I write this I have been using the DS products for 7 weeks.
I saw a doctor a doctor 10 days ago, and I was mostly hoping to get a bloodtest and to look into possible thyroid condition. The doctor was not willing to do any blood work at that time and insisted it had to be another seperate appointment. After all the discussion with her about what I've tried in the past and what hasn't worked or only worked very short-term, she wrote me a prescription for tetracycline and a benzoil-peroxide topical. She wants me to try different things with her and return for monthly appointments. I left the building knowing I had no faith in these products or this doctor, and knowing that I did still have some faith invested in the DS products.
My parents know of my battles, and also know of my opinion that mites are troubling my skin. They would hope and want for me to have found my own solution, but also will often reffer to it as another website preying on people's despirations. After a pretty bad breakout within the first couple weeks of DS treatment I thought most of the bad was over and I had only the better to look forward to, but I was wrong. My face is terrible at this momment, and I feel like I just don't want to exist anymore. Last night after calling in sick to work because I simply couldn't bring myself to face the world, I was laying on my bed crying my eyes out with my mother telling me I should listen to the Doctor and let her use trial and error with medications for my skin untill she finds something that works. I try to explain to her that I've invested in 4 months of DS treatment, and need to give it due time to give real results. She feels I've been trying it long enough and need to put my faith in the Doctor. I'm under a lot of pressure now to put away the DS creams and start with what the doctor wants me to take orally and put on my face topically. I can't help the way I feel just as I couldn't help calling into work last night because of being so digusted with my face. Whether the DS creams take good effect soon or I turn to the doctor's orders out of despiration, I feel like something has to make it turn to the better pretty soon or I am going to give up all togther, give up on my hopes for clear skin and give up on hopes for a happy life. I simply can't take it anymore. I invested $500 in my DS products and I'm soon to be half way through all the cream treatments I bought, still no sign of the breakouts being done with so I just don't know anymore. My family is really pressuring me now so I don't know what I can do as far as using the doctor prescriptions while still using the DS treatment as directed. DS treatment needs to be applied nightly before bed and so does what the doctor wants me to use topically.
My face is now all welted up in pussy parts and huge cysts and whiteheads. My face is already scarred permanently and whats happening on my face now is sure to bring more scars that'll be there forever. I want more than anything for something to solve my problem, and though some might say I'm emotionally disturbed for not wanting to face public and wanting to hide away, I know 100% that the root cause of it all is my skin. I become a very happy person when something gives hope and makes me feel like the last of the beakouts are fading away on my skin and into the past, but when will these DS creams get to that point? I'm miserable, I can't be at my best for the people I love and I can't face the world.
